Sometimes it is hard to discover that people you can consider as friends are nothing more than work colleagues looking out for number one !
Several times in my career I have come across these people but for some reason this time it hurt. More than usual, don't get me wrong I know these people exist but now instead of fighting other people's corners I feel it's time to fight my own and block out anybody else's 'problems'. You know the type, they moan and moan about situations but do Jack shit about it, then when you become spokesperson they deny having a problem !
I was asked today if I like my job and I said I loved it, then I find out people aren't who they seem to be and suddenly I realise I can no longer love my job but just endure it until I can retire...sad but true
So I am wide awake at 3am with my mind working overtime
Wishing I was old enough to retire
Wishing card making or dressmaking could make me enough money to change my job
Wishing yesterday never happened
But most of all wishing I had not left myself wide open enough to be hurt again.
My hip replacement redo has decided to play around and 'pop out' at random moments so I am waiting to see my consultant to see what can be done to stop it
I am hoping he recommends some strengthening exercises but there is a possibility it will need a revision, at this moment in time I think it may be my cue to quit work and retire early on ill health .
So let's look for some positives....
My puppy is adorable and just what you need after a shitty day, puppy cuddles are the best !
That's about it for now
So I'll say goodnight, snuggle up to my puppy and have a few games of candy crush until I bore myself to sleep xx
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